First Fragment: Loneliness

Loneliness hurts. It resides in my heart, and eats away the happiness. It changes mindsets at the roots, at the source, at the core. Disregarding, it calls out louder, bites harder, and takes over.

I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the maker of Heaven and earth!

And so, it is extinguished. That feeling is gone.
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Before I knew God, I would ask "why me?" Who listened then? I don't know, I have no idea. I would ask whenever life gets me down hard. I would ask when it didn't make sense, when it troubled me, when it upset me, when the ounce of happiness in my heart deserted me.
Perhaps God heard.
I wouldn't know. I would wake up the next morning with the same attitude as the night before. I would go to my bathroom, wash that memorable gaze depicting the freezing winter raging within my heart away, and replacing it with the seemingly fulfilled grin to show what little happiness I had left stored in that same heart. I went about my day with school, tennis practice, shower, dinner, and at last, the bed.

I shall now go to San Francisco and have dinner with some family. Good bye now.
Do not worry about me, for God is good, and I know He will lead me to companions of Christ, and companions of the world. Pray that when I meet those companions of the world, God will work through me to reveal Himself to them.