I've always wondered about a lot of things. Despite my wide mouth that seems to spew words unending, I don't actually say a lot of things that I want to say. It's getting better, my words have become more meaningful, and what I say is starting to change things. Still, like now, I am saying a lot of nothing. There is something I wish to say, though.
It was great to see the Water Walkers church come together and fellowship together. It was great to see the growth everyone had attained during their first couple months of university life. I really enjoy being able to hear of trials, praises, and everything in between that had occurred. The more I think about how much I actually enjoy that time, the more I begin to miss it all.
And if I was the old self, I would be greatly saddened by the sudden absence of the church I can really call my "home" church.
But I know that it is because of God that we are able to come together, despite the separation, and still be the true person we really are toward each other. I know that we will never forget each other, even as we go about our separate ways, deeper into the blessings that God has in store for us. Above all, I know that I will see you all again, one day, when the time comes for us to meet Jesus face-to-face, to share our time with the One we truly love, who truly loves us back. I know that we will never be apart spiritually. I know, in the bigger picture, we are never alone, we are always together, through Jesus.
And through this, I'm beginning to understand what love truly means. I know I love God, and I praise Him for blessing me with such a church to be connected to. And I know I love you, whether you are a brother, a sister, a friend, or an acquaintance.
The new year has come. It is time for a faith-driven life. So long have I neglected my spiritual life, filling my heart with bits of anger, lust, and jealousy as I went about my first few months of college. My spiritual life is calling for its much-needed bread and wine. It starves, and as it starves, I crumble slowly, fading away from God, drawing closer and closer to the lion that devours. No more.
I felt something in me stir one day. I don't exactly remember it, but it was a sudden surge. A sudden call, perhaps, to a mission to restore myself. I realized the situation with my spiritual life, and something in me told me it was time to make a commitment and heal myself. Coming from that, I am now declaring my commitment to feeding my soul with what it needs. I knew God wouldn't abandon me.
I pray that this journey will be blessed by the One who called me to it. I pray that I will walk closer and closer back to God, back to the light that gives all good things.
I really do love God. Now I can gain the context to rebuild my foundation.
The winter quarter gives me lots of time for things to be done. That time can be used constructively or destructively. I pray that it will be used constructively. Thank you for reading, and I pray that God will bless you today.
